Lucky You

[Nyx Riot]

Nyx helped Kelrym inside his loft and to the sofa, carefully setting him on it. Once that was done he kicked his shoes off and tosses his hoodie on the chair. "You want anything?" Nyxie asked as he sat on the coffee table that was across from the sofa. "If you get tired and wanna sleep you can steal my bed." Nyx absently played with one of his lip rings. "And don't worry, I wont tell anyone."

[Kelrym Levithan]

Kelrym shook his head lightly, trying to decide if asking to smoke, drink, and/or get high was a logical thing to ask. He was fucked up, but he knew he wasn't fucked up enough to ask someone like Nyxie the Pyxie to do those things in his loft, let alone his presence. He looked at Nyx when he heard the last line and didn't know whether or not to smile or cry.

"Pretty great night, so far." Kelrym muttered, sarcasm saturating every bit of his statement.

[Nyx Riot]

A sad look appeared on Nyx's face at Kelrym's words. He silently moved to sit beside his friend and hugged him. "I'm always here if you want to vent or rant or bitch or whatever," he replied softly. "I can keep a secret and wont judge you." Nyx was hoping Kelrym would understand that he cared and didn't want to see his friend upset. Nyx hated when people were upset and it killed him when he couldn't help.

[Kelrym Levithan]

Kelrym didn't even know how to explain the situation- he felt as though he had no reason to be upset right now. He rested his head on Nyx's shoulder and let his eyes fall shut.

"I'm so fucked up. And I keep fucking things up. I'm no good- why do you guys even keep me around? Why-"

[Nyx Riot]

Nyx put his hand over Kelrym's mouth to shut him up as he shook his head lightly. "You're not fucked up," he replied softly. "You're just going through a rough patch is all. You're an amazing guy, Kelrym. You're a guitar god, your voice makes me jealous, and your art leaves me at a loss for words." Nyx slowly moved his hand away from his friend's mouth. "I know you wont believe anything I just said- but it's true. We love you, Kelrym. Some of us- ZeroandCodes- more than others. Don't lose site of that."

[Kelrym Levithan]

Kelrym watched Nyx behind eyes which were well past glazed over by now. He hated crying in front of anyone, but Nyx and Codes were all the exceptions he'd make. Whether it was the effects of the alcohol in combination with the events from earlier in the evening or merely Kelrym's fragile mind, no one can be sure. He buried his face in his hands and just sobbed.

[Nyx Riot]

Nyx got really sad when Kelrym started crying. He wrapped his arms around the other boy and held him close, rocking gently. He stayed quiet, knowing that sometimes it was better to just get everything out. Nyx had never seen Kelrym cry before but it didn't bother him any. Everyone had a moment of weakness even if they didn't want to admit it...

[Kelrym Levithan]

Kelrym wasn't really sure how long it went on like that. He had lost track of all time from earlier that evening, and it had no intent of coming back to him anytime soon. Eventually, he revealed his face to the world again: his eyes were bloodshot, and his cheeks tear stained. He sniffled and wiped his eyes harshly with the back of his hand, refusing to meet Nyx's eyes.

"S-Sorry..." He whispered and wiped his eyes again.

[Nyx Riot]

Nyx watched his friend, silently wondering what was going on in the other boys mind. "Dont be, Nyx replied softly. "We all have our moments of weakness, even if we don't want to admit it." Nyn knew all about having moments of weakness. He knew all about being scared and alone and wanted to do anything he could to keep his friends from feeling that way.

[Kelrym Levithan]

Kelrym couldn't stop the water works, no matter how hard he tried. "I fucked up so bad with Codes. I dunno if he's okay or anything. God, I'm such an idiot. I'm such a fucking idiot. He didn't want to and I just fucking lost it..." Kelrym spoke mainly to himself even though Nyx was still there with him.

[Nyx Riot]

Nyx held Kelrym close, rocking gently as he did so. He hated seeing his friends upset, but really wasn't sure what to do to help him. He figured if he let his friend talk he'd be able to think of something somewhere along the line. "What happened?" He asked softly. "It's okay, you can tell me. I won't think any differently of you."

He was suddenly thrown back to when he got raped. He remembered doing nothing but crying for days on end and trying to scrap his skin off his body. The worst was the feeling of being violated and used. He shuddered lightly at the memory and forced it out of his mind, knowing that if he wanted to help Kelrym he needed to keep a clear mind.