We've moved to a new site.
I don't really know what else to say. *sigh* Don't like the way this was gone about, but it happened, so I guess I should tell everyone else so they're not left out.http://z10.invisionfree.com/SOTF_V2/index.php?act=idx
It's over. And it's been over since October 16th, 2006, when so-called friends decided to schism and start their own site. Cool stuff.
I had wanted to do this sooner but I couldn't without appearing to be a very pissed off jackass and no one wants that, do they? By my understanding, SOTF V2 had taken off and became "successful" supposedly beyond SOTF v1. Sometimes, I miss being the administrator of such a website, after all I was the one who created it originally, shouldn't I be shown the courtesy of being credited in the very least? It's my guess I'm just one of those people whose names you say with your eyes looking the other way. That's the way you deal with overthrowing admins with "too much power", I suppose. You pretend like everything's getting along just find and stab them from behind and take their throne.
Someone once compared the situation to Caesar, that I'd be the one killed by the Senate. I don't agree with that analogy because there's no Mark Antony in this scene. Backs have been turned without knowing how it all truly happened.
I'm constantly reminded of the lovely Keiko's desperate quote about Shogo not knowing "the feelings involved". I never could quite understand it until now, when I realized that, for the sake of Survival of the Fittest's own survival, I was overlooked. Despite my attempt to change to the way that my former friends wanted, to stop them from viewing me as a "dictator", I still had everything pulled out from under me. A site was made behind my back and I lost it, which made this notice so many months late.
Do I miss SOTF sometimes? Yeah, but dwelling on the past just makes me sick. And when I say "yeah", I mean the early days of SOTF, before all this cliquey shit appeared and it all went down from there. The first SOTF summer, definitely, was the time that I liked the most. Everyone was fresh, friendships were beginning to form, characters were sprouting up everywhere with exciting storylines... No one was favoring one character or another just to hop on a wagon. Things were fair. That is the SOTF I miss the most... Fuck the rest of it; I made too many mistakes after that that I could never recover from, no matter how much my ex-friends fooled me that everything was a-okay. Nothing was okay after that.
Long story short, SOTF v2+ and me...no, I'm not going back. Closest thing to going back for me would be me signing on one of my old screennames, but the odds of that are minimal since practically all of you fucking betrayed me. Sorry, guys and gals.
Will I start a new roleplay site? I tried making a non-BR site and that failed, if that makes you happy. Reached the 10 member mark then died from lack of activity, this time it was no fault of my own. I learned from that experience and the whole SOTF experience. Hopefully, one day I'll be able to start a new Battle Royale roleplay that won't be a clone of any version of Survival of the Fittest. I'm taking things one step at a time.
If you'd like to contact me, wait for the purple moon that I'll sign on one of my old screennames. I'm ready to talk without being overly touchy about the SOTF subject, really. We were friends once. We might have changed, but don't forget.
With all due respect,
Your Former Admin Kaishi
Yep, we're all on that board now, not this one, that one, which isn't this one because it's that one.